01Morning Routine
what people saw
I got ready. Made breakfast. Put on normal clothes.
what was happening inside
Replaying the last words over and over in my head.
the next day.
“It’s strange how normal you can look while something inside you is completely elsewhere.”
route: 2-hour bus journey / looking at the glass
0208:45 AMThe 2-Hour Bus Journey
what people saw
Staring out of the window with headphones on. Head resting on the glass.
what was happening inside
Watching distant streetlights and city buildings blur, wondering what you were doing.
0311:15 AMWith Friends
what people saw
I laughed. I joined conversations. I looked completely fine.
what was happening inside
Every joke felt muted. I was sitting at the table, but I wasn’t really there.
0402:30 PMWork & Building
what people saw
Writing code, answering messages, staying productive.
what was happening inside
Remembering small things you told me that no one else around me knew.
0508:00 PMEvening Silence
what people saw
Walking back in the dark.
what was happening inside
Realizing that life moves on effortlessly, even when something inside has stopped.